Setback

We've had a rough day. Mom's been nauseous and throwing up. I think that it's clearly due to the fact that she asked for several doses of oxyfast yesterday. (Since she came on Thursday she'd been getting only one dose per day.) The hospice gal was here today, and advised stopping the feeding for a bit so her stomach can calm down. (Aside from that she doesn't have any "magic pill" to make things better, and we'll talk again after she consults with the doctor.) Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Thankfully the doctor appointment is on Wednesday. It's frustrating, though, because there just don't seem to be any answers or solutions to her misery. She said again today that she wishes that she could just go to sleep and not wake up. It's hard to see her suffer and it's becoming harder to want to convince her that it's worth living when her life is so difficult. Yet life and death are in God's hands and He must have a purpose since she is still alive. It's hard to understand.

I try to find things that can offer some comfort - from soft music to Scripture on CD, or just holding her hand or watching her favorite "As Time Goes By" with her.

I told her Thursday that we were so glad she was finally here. I can honestly say that I still feel that way. As hard as it is, it is a privilege to show her love and compassion and to try to meet her needs as best as we can. Pray for her and for us....